jamar.

we can never stop arguing. all of our conversations turn into headaches. i dont think i can take it anymore. i love his ass, dont get me wrong, but is it right to be wit one that you cant deal with? we fight and argue. we scream and cuss at each other. he gets the car on the weekends and youd think every once in a while hed come see me. but no its NEVER that. its always blaze,friends,blaze,friends. i know i shouldnt be more important than his "friends" but shouldnt i come somewhere in between there. i think it should go like blaze,friends,blaze,breanne,friends,blaze,breanne. he does nothing but smoke & im SICK of kissing someone who smells like fuckin weed all the damn time. i dont think thats cute to smoke weed. its unattractive, i honestly dont think were gonna be moving from this spot.


"i NEED someone who will make me apart of them. i fall for the players, but seems i play the same games."

so i went 2 the doctor today, cuz i aint been feeling good. & how bout this muhfkr asked me if i was sexually active & i was like oh wow look at the tv HEY THERES A BUTTERFLY . so they got "worried" & decided to test me for ADD. well it turns out i have ADHD . which is basically the same thing , but im just more hyper. & then the bths ran a test on fkn bipolar disorder. & that i am also. but i cant get medication because their scared i might stop the medication or try to overdose when & if i go into a stage of depression. i had to do a fkn questionare and so did my mom and i was like ughhh wtf.

im goin back 2 schoo tomorrow but i got ISS cuz that stupid heffer kathy barber wrote me up cuz i didnt go 2 fkn lunch detention which i think is GAY. lunch detention is RETARDED. all because i was late 5 times.


i have a spanish project due TOMORROW & i havent even started. my spanish teacher is a total pain in the as*. she constantly tries my G status [l0l] & i cant stand that. she talks to me like im stupid just cuz im the only ninth grader in that spanish2 class. i told her newsflash if i coulda chose which teacher i woulda got , she would be my LAST resort. oh well ,


im pretty stressed & tired. so im signing off til tomorrow [or later] ,
bts