I LOVE JAMAR

im in love w/ him(: forever. &+ we're definetly getting married.

recently

i havent updated recently. well heres a few new things, me &+ jamar are engaged. jking. were closer than ever &+ more in love then ever. been in trouble. nothin new. ok well hmm , dats all i feel like typingg. k iholla.

scary.

iight, i got pulled over last night. im 14. ok? were all minors. iight. ciara high and drunk as fuck. breannas 13. wtff. of all nights? i mean shit. we was on walton way. i was bout to be where i needed to be. i mean WTFFF. 5 more minutes and i woulda been straight. but i mean god dammit. i LOVE jamar and all, but he should have stayed home and i woulda been in the OPPOSITE way. but its not his fault. i shouldnt have been driving. god damn im so fkn stupid.

hahah.

omg omg omg, im in love with jamar. no matter how much he hurts me and lies. i love him so much & i can't explain it. he means the world to me and id kill a bitch fo him. mannn, i mean i just love him. im IN LOVE with jamar.

jamar 3.

omg omg omg. my baby fkd a nasty bitch on "accident" WTF. i mean c'mon now. & he expected me not to get pissed. was i supposed to throw him a fuckin party?! i mean when i fkd up he got all pissy & we did nothin but argue. i sat on the fkn phone with him & cried and he did nothin but try to talk to me, like nothin happened. he didnt believe me when i told him i was cryin n shit. i mean nigga foreal, i wouldnt sit there making noises because i want you to feel like a asshole. i mean i wanted him to feel like a asshole but i still love him to the death. he did some fkd up shit & he broke my heart. like shattered that bitch. i didnt think i could EVER fall in love again. well i did, but i didn't want to be heartbroken again HEY look what the fk happened. i just dont know what to say anymore. im confused, in love, pissed, in love,sad,happy,inlove. he makes me feel so GOOD and i mean he makes me want to kill him. i believed him. & that was my FIRST mistake. why could, scratch that, why would a eighteen year old want anything to do with a fourteen year old. i was mistaken and shii. i played dat game twice & he played it back. but seems to me, he didnt cry. he just wanted to argue. everythings not fine between us. the tension is so strong & the awkwardness is going to be so... awkward. i dont want to love him. but he told me he wanted to marry me & be with me. it's not the first time i've been told that & i'm pretty sure it's not the last. but answer my one question,

why would he tell me hes in love with me, if hes really not?

'08

tomorrow is election day. in four years, @ the next election ill be able to vote(: ill be 18. but anyways, theres no school tomorrow & obama is going to win. if he doesn't it's all gravy. im not gonna move out the country or anything. my baby is coming over tomorrow to just chill. im posed to be chillin wit essence around idk what time. were posed to go blaze & shii. should be fun, but aye man on some real. i LOVE jamar no matter what. were gonna be together for a hot minute. no matter if mccain or obama is gonna win, its gonna be a historical election. if obama wins- hes gonna be the first black pres. if mccain wins= sara palin will be the first woman vice pres & possibly pres when mccain has his heartttack. oh well, im just sayin whatever cuz i didnt yesterday. haha im watchin sabrina the teenage witch, they wildin on dis show., haha k OH me & ciara are becomin real cool. anyways, ill holla.

jamar[II].

what did i tell you?