jamar 3.

omg omg omg. my baby fkd a nasty bitch on "accident" WTF. i mean c'mon now. & he expected me not to get pissed. was i supposed to throw him a fuckin party?! i mean when i fkd up he got all pissy & we did nothin but argue. i sat on the fkn phone with him & cried and he did nothin but try to talk to me, like nothin happened. he didnt believe me when i told him i was cryin n shit. i mean nigga foreal, i wouldnt sit there making noises because i want you to feel like a asshole. i mean i wanted him to feel like a asshole but i still love him to the death. he did some fkd up shit & he broke my heart. like shattered that bitch. i didnt think i could EVER fall in love again. well i did, but i didn't want to be heartbroken again HEY look what the fk happened. i just dont know what to say anymore. im confused, in love, pissed, in love,sad,happy,inlove. he makes me feel so GOOD and i mean he makes me want to kill him. i believed him. & that was my FIRST mistake. why could, scratch that, why would a eighteen year old want anything to do with a fourteen year old. i was mistaken and shii. i played dat game twice & he played it back. but seems to me, he didnt cry. he just wanted to argue. everythings not fine between us. the tension is so strong & the awkwardness is going to be so... awkward. i dont want to love him. but he told me he wanted to marry me & be with me. it's not the first time i've been told that & i'm pretty sure it's not the last. but answer my one question,

why would he tell me hes in love with me, if hes really not?